Fun in the sun came at a cost and unsurprisingly, a cold of some kind seems to have followed us home to Colorado.  It was Spring Break in California and a solid number of the young population there seemed to be hacking everywhere we went.  So when our daughter started a small cough on the […]

A few weeks before Beckett was diagnosed in utero, I wrote something in a spontaneous moment of creativity.  I have often scribbled a fleeting thought down for expansion later.  It was short, just a sentence.  But what I wrote was “everyone wants to be the hero in their story.” I have thought back on that small […]

Our family is going away for a week on vacation and I have been thinking a lot about what I want to write about for while we are gone.  I kept thinking I wanted to discuss what my expectations for the upcoming trip are, but I am coming to the conclusion that I would rather […]

I thought that my insanely busy day yesterday was going to be what gave me a headache.  But it turned out to be the sobbing-my-eyes-out ugly cry over Beckett on the way home last night that did me in. Here is the little secret about how a lot of us bereaved parents are “doing it.”  […]

My love for Beckett was flowing naturally through me with no necessary initial carving because Moira had already driven through my heart. Of course Beckett sculpted out new pathways and caverns all his own with his existence, but I already knew mothers love, in a much less complicated way.