The first time I remember staring purposefully in to the sky, I was a small child looking at the stars. It was late at night, and the mountain air was cold. A family home in the rocky mountains afforded me the opportunity to look deep into the heavens with clear skies and quiet surroundings frequently. I […]

While I was pregnant with Beckett, I was subject to panic attacks.  On the outside, I probably just looked concerned and stoic.  But inside I was screaming.  I felt trapped and anguished.  As daunting as the situation ahead seemed, sitting in the anticipation of it seemed worse.  I carried that apprehension all the way in […]

I have a phrase I’ve been repeating to friends, expressing where I am with my life right now.  I have two modes: fun, or bawling my eyes out.  It’s the most summarizing way I can explain where my head is at.  I find myself running between being as outlaid, as real and alive as I […]