Fun in the sun came at a cost and unsurprisingly, a cold of some kind seems to have followed us home to Colorado.  It was Spring Break in California and a solid number of the young population there seemed to be hacking everywhere we went.  So when our daughter started a small cough on the […]

A few weeks before Beckett was diagnosed in utero, I wrote something in a spontaneous moment of creativity.  I have often scribbled a fleeting thought down for expansion later.  It was short, just a sentence.  But what I wrote was “everyone wants to be the hero in their story.” I have thought back on that small […]

Our family is going away for a week on vacation and I have been thinking a lot about what I want to write about for while we are gone.  I kept thinking I wanted to discuss what my expectations for the upcoming trip are, but I am coming to the conclusion that I would rather […]

I thought that my insanely busy day yesterday was going to be what gave me a headache.  But it turned out to be the sobbing-my-eyes-out ugly cry over Beckett on the way home last night that did me in. Here is the little secret about how a lot of us bereaved parents are “doing it.”  […]

My love for Beckett was flowing naturally through me with no necessary initial carving because Moira had already driven through my heart. Of course Beckett sculpted out new pathways and caverns all his own with his existence, but I already knew mothers love, in a much less complicated way.

I knew that was sad, and it resonated on some deep level. But grief is a bell that gets rung so many times a day that you learn to move through the vibration rather than shake and break under it. I was moving there pretty good. All day in fact. Until I finished out the night and went to turn off the bedroom light.

Since Beckett’s passing, a lot of my response has been positive. I have truths I hold on to at all times that have great meaning in my life and often make it a good day to keep moving forward. Living somewhere I love with people I love is an incredible thing to have and I […]

To call everything that happened concerning Beckett last year a learning experience is an enormous understatement.  I had never experienced the death of a close family member, so to lose my own son was going from one extreme to the other.  I have learned so many things in the wake of his death, but the […]

Hi, and welcome to my blog! I’m Brittany. Why Scars & Eyelashes? It was a line from something I wrote during a most difficult time in my life and it stuck in my mind. It was meant to apply to my beautiful child, but in truth, it can apply to any of us. Certainly to me. This is my […]

This blog entry has been a long time coming. Longer even than since Beckett’s death. Years in the making. I have often found writing to be the medium I am most comfortable in. It’s something I enjoy doing and feel comes naturally to me. So in that spirit, I have considered sharing my writing many […]